Nutella

Where have you been all my life?
(yes I just read a bunch of forums that this stuff really isn't that good for you but I think some berries and Nutella make for a better desert than Ben and Jerry's)

The First Step

The trick is to eat better! huh...who knew?
A few days ago I mentioned to David that I wanted to go back on my yellow pills. He gave me the look of disapproval, and in the words of Holly Golightly "I don't take money from disapproving gentlemen!" He made a valid point in his argument though, I give him that. He told me that I rely so much on these shakes and pills and crazy diets and I don't really put forth any effort to eat healthier or exercise. Exercise is still troubling to me. I'm so tired from work I just don't have the energy to run on a treadmill. Not to mention that 8 hours a day 6 days a week I am on my feet because I work retail so by the end of the day my feet hurt so bad I feel like they are going to fall off.
So I took myself to the grocery store, and instead of the easy to make meals I buy for David when I won't be home in time to make dinner, I got healthy stuff. Raspberries, mangos, salad, healthy choice meals for lunch and so on. I took pride in myself for passing up all the crap and making good decisions. The result of better eating is a bigger bill though. My normal $60 bi-weekly grocery spending turned into $130.
I think if I add up in my head though how much I ate out and bought my lunch from AJ's or Pei Wei I would have spent about the same amount in one week.
So cheers to me for taking the first step to a healthier lifestyle!

probably being a little hard on myself, but its deserved

Ok so i was reading through some stuff trying to find the perfect workout plan that i can stick to this summer to FINALLY lose this weight. Then it hit me! All the research i have done over the years on fad diets, pills, workouts i know the secret to losing weight! STOP FUCKING WHINING AND MAKING EXCUSES AND JUST DO IT!!!
The formula is simple (simple not easy) eat right and workout. There is no magic pill that will make u hot. There are supplements that will help u lose weight, but temporary if at all. and lets be honest all yoyo dieting does is make u feel ok when u are at ur sknniest and worse when u arnt. not to mention the $$$$$ on clothes. Ugh! Over the years i have tried several diet plans and workouts that would of worked if i got my lazy ass up and did it. See i dont think its finding the right plan for you, i think its finding the right time for you. the time when u put the ben and jerrys down, kick your self in the cellulite and say to your self "get your fat lazy ass off the god damn couch and move!!!" and come on i think a lot of it has to be wanting it. and being willing to work for it!!
Now ok i know that everyone is different and that time is an issue. if you want this badly enough you will find the time to do it, try Jillian Micheal workouts, she has a dvd thats like 30min 3 times a week. and ok YES some of us have a body that is genitally programmed to hold more fat. I have one of them. I am of Nordic decent (apparently u can trace my ancestry to Eric the red and Viking arnt known to be tiny people) Ok fine my body does a GREAT job storing calories, so all i have to do is change that. find out what my caloric intake should be to de-fluffy and then DONT EAT MORE THAN THAT!!! and come on people, we know what is healthy and what isnt. Mcdonalds bad salad good. Not rocket science. and the list of recipes out there for good food is endless. and as far as the ancestry goes, vikings were not fat, they had a CRAP load of mussels, and they earned them the hard way. I dont build ships, kill dragons nor do i pillage and burn villages (not recently anyway) so i do need to workout. Hey some people were born skinny i am not one of them that just means i will appreciate it more when i get there. and i will get there. so i am going to use this more and i am going to get off my lazy ass and do what i need to do and i am going to stop bitching and whining about how i would be happier if i were skinny how i could get the man i want how i could go shopping where ever and i am going to do something about it. Seriously if u dont like something dont be a spoiled bitch and whine fucking fix it your self or get over it!

<3
Maye

I love vintage!

I was looking at some vintage ads adn I found these great ones for weight loss or for those of us who are "chubby"!!!

Workout will resume.....uhhh...sometime

I have PMDD. This causes me to have 1 week out of the month where I can't go out in public becuase I will either 1) murder them 2) eat them or 3) murder them and eat them.
So today I'm feeling a little like this


and sounding a little like this



**Christina**

The Workout Enigma

I don't know what it is about working out that gets me all pissed off. I hate...HATE working out! Everyday my husband will ask me, no... tell me, that we are going to the gym and I always throw a temper tantrum like a 5 year old spoiled brat that has been asked to give her favorite Barbie doll to charity. I get super grumpy and I snap at him and pick fights about it. I bitch to him the entire time I'm getting my gym clothes on and all the way to the gym. It will take me at least 20 minutes to even get ready for the gym when it should only take me 5. I make excuses for not wanting to go (I'm sick, I'm too tired, I cleaned the house and I'm counting that as my cardio for the day).
When I am at the gym I am still in my grumpy state. I hate that the televisions at a gym are always on a channel that's more for men or butch women than women like me. I want to watch some Saved By the Bell or maybe even a Lifetime movie. The other day I was at the gym and my television options were CNN, Nascar or Basketball, not very motivating material for me. I know that I have the option to watch something on my iPod or listen to some music but there's an issue for me there as well. On my iPod, all I have to watch is Step Up 2: The Streets, Breakfast at Tiffany's or one episode of Entourage (because it's my favorite episode and buying a whole season is expensive). I've listened to my music a million and one times and so I get sick of songs easily and I don't have Limewire anymore to download something new. If I could find a way to bring my mini (well not so mini) DVD player and find an elliptical close to a wall outlet I would be set. Unfortunately though, that is not an option. I've even looked to see if my camera had a headphone jack so that I could just record a half hour to an hour long program...but it doesn't.
So I'm stuck there for an hour or more watching boring TV and listening to songs I've heard over and over again and podcasts that I don't find all that entertaining when I'm in a bad mood.
The weird thing is, is that when it's all over and my husband says "lets go home" I feel better. I'm in a much better mood, I feel energized and clear headed. I love the end result of a good long workout. It's everything that leads to the end result that I hate. If only I could look ahead and realize that I do indeed need to do the work in order to get the high maybe I could break the mental block I have about working out. I don't know why I can't though. So here I go to the gym for the day, kicking and screaming as usual.
**Christina**